New Lens

Gots me a new lens for my birthday :)

{I think I'm in LOVE!}

29

today i am 29. yikes.

Crushed

Well, it happened - yesterday. I am not going to elaborate, but I do want to get some thought's down here so that one day I can reflect back on this day. I was numb all yesterday, it resulted in me popping a xanax (prescribed, of course)...and ultimately ended with me at happy hour, crying. awesome.
It was a day full of raw emotions, and lead me to neglect my work that I needed to get done. I am going through this with a friend, but everything is becoming more clear - everything pointed to this - everything was shady. We should've known.

I'm trying to move past this, but it will be a little while before it's fully settled in and gone. I have dreams for this summer - beach, seattle, beer fests, skating, cooking, relaxing, being awesome...perhaps this was a blessing in disguise.

Life will carry on - it just happened to have a few little bumps yesterday.

...wow...

...okay, so i know that i have already posted today, but this is such a good find from my past. I graduated high school in 1999, so this 'song' was definitely heard alot back then. Being that i have been out of high school for 11 years, i am finding some of the 'guidance' from here to be true...weird. Anyway, here it is - Baz Lurhmann's "Everybody's Free to Wear Sunscreen" c. 1999 :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTJ7AzBIJoI

...it's making me feel a little bit better about today.

Today

{Today}
...could be good
...could be bad
...I am trying
...I am learning
...I am happy
...I am sad
...I am concerned
...I am thinking
...I am wondering
...I am waiting...

Monday Blues

Here it is::: The Monday after being gone for every weekend in September. The Monday after standing in the rain for 4 hours at Lane Stadium. The Monday where I feel like I *might* be coming down with something.

I almost stayed home from work today, but I figured there is no use in that. There was no good reason for me to spend a sick day at home. I was tired when I woke up this morning, but that's pretty typical. Now I am feeling warm, tired, and cranky - which again could just be a lack of sleep, or I could be coming down with something.

I have practice tonight from 7-10pm, and will not be getting home until around 11pm, if I am lucky (something about paving on the highway...). I will attempt to go to bed immediately, but this does not always work out well. I will re-evaluate things in the morning and will decided how I am feeling then.

I was freezing last night and needed to break out the down comforter, which was odd...again, we'll see how tonight goes, which will dictate how tomorrow goes.

Ugh. serious case of the Monday's.

I Scream

ice cream is getting the best of me today. I'm on round 2...last round was about 1.5 hours ago. make me stop!